Out with the old, in with the new, right? Not in this house. This year, I’m going back to the old. That is, I’m going back to what works, which for me is following the Weight Watchers program.
I have been on and off WW for more years than should be allowed, but the fact is that every time I have done it and really followed the program, I have been successful. So then why am I in my current situation? Probably a combination of things. Usually when I do WW and I start to lose, I get real cocky and think I can just do it on my own. Or else I start slacking on program, which results in weekly gains (or at least not losses), and so I give up. The last time I was on WW, I stopped because I really wasn’t following the program and couldn’t justify spending the money to basically do nothing.
So now I’m back again. It’s quite humbling to go back to WW. “Hi welcome to Weight Watchers, is this your first time here?” “Ha ha, yeah right.” “Oh, uh, welcome back?” And every time I ask myself what is going to be different this time. So now I ask the question again, and to be honest, I really can’t answer it other than to say that my head is in a different place. I’ve just got a different mentality this time around. I do want to make a change in my life, but a permanent change, a lifestyle change. And I have to say that WW has a new program that I am loving. Everyone knows how WW works – every food is assigned a specific number of points and you get so many points a day/week. What’s new is that fruit is now “free,” or no points. So other foods have gone up in points, but they are trying to get people to focus on eating the foods that are healthier and better for us.
Look, I don’t want to be counting points for the rest of my life, but I do want to be happy and healthy. I want my kid to ask for fruit instead of goldfish, I want him to ask to play instead of watching TV, and I want him to see a healthy mom who sets a good example by doing all those things. I want my husband to tell me I’m hot instead of cute. (Attention all men: women do not want to be told they are cute, OK?) To be a little vain, I want to look in the mirror and think, wow I look good instead of blech. I want to walk two flights of stairs without getting winded. I want to put on pants and not have to suck in to get them buttoned. (Side note, it wouldn’t hurt if I lost a little up top too!) I don’t want to be the fat friend or the fat mom. I want to be me, but a better me.
Lucky for me, I have a great support system. My mom is my biggest champion and encourages me every step of the way. Although he can’t really grasp the idea of a weight struggle, my husband is supportive in his own way. And one of the reasons I’ve always liked WW is the support you get at meetings. I know it’s easy to make fun of, but for me, those meetings are a great source of encouragement. It’s helpful to hear others who are going through your same struggles. I’m usually one of the more vocal meeting attendees, but I think it helps me to talk out loud about what works and what doesn’t.
I know the person I want to be is in me somewhere, she’s just stuck in all those rolls. I am ready to put this year behind me and look ahead to what I know will be a great year!